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1964 (Week One)

Paul had kept writing even after they started dating. And not just him. Vera wrote back each letter paired like a call and response, dated and stacked with care. It was as if their relationship had a second heartbeat, pulsing quietly through these notes shared in the in between moments of ordinary life.

The next bundle was marked April 1964 almost exactly a year after that first bold invitation to Morris’s Diner.

John eased the twine off carefully, treating the letters like sacred relics. The top envelope was his grandfather’s handwriting. He opened it and read.

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April 17, 1964

Dear Vera,

Happy one year and four days.

I know we saw Charade to celebrate though I still stand by my theory that it was really a Cary Grant fashion show disguised as a thriller but I couldn’t let this week pass without writing to you. Even now, even with things the way they are, writing to you feels like the only way I can say what I really mean.

A year ago, I was just some fool with shaky hands and a letter in his pocket. You made me feel like maybe I wasn’t just pretending to be someone worth knowing. You looked at me like I mattered and that scared the hell out of me. Still does, if I’m honest.

Lately, though… I know I haven’t been easy to be with. I’ve let things fester. I’ve said things I didn’t mean and left things unsaid that I should’ve shouted. You don’t need to tell me I’ve been distant I can feel the space growing between us like a skipped track on a record we used to love.

And truthfully, Vera, I’ve been afraid. Afraid that maybe you’ve seen through me. That the man you thought you saw at the jukebox a year ago was just a song and dance routine. Some days I look in the mirror and wonder who I’m trying to fool me or you.

But the truth is, I still love you. I never stopped. Even when I was too proud to say it or too stubborn to admit I was wrong.

If I’ve lost you or if I’m losing you I need to know. But if there’s still a verse left for us, even a quiet one, I want to sing it with you. Off key and imperfect, but honest.

I miss you, even when we’re in the same room. I miss the girl who used to finish my sentences, and the boy I used to be when you looked at me like I wasn’t broken.

If I’ve been a fool, it’s only because I cared too much and didn’t know how to show it.

Still yours, if you’ll have me,
Paul

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April 20, 1964

Dear Paul,

I read your letter three times before I could even think about writing back.

There was a time maybe not so long ago when your words would’ve made me laugh and cry in the same breath. Now, they sit a little heavier on my chest. Maybe because they still mean something to me. Maybe because they mean too much.

I won’t lie, Paul. Things haven’t been easy. And I’ve spent more nights than I want to admit lying awake, wondering if we were better as a beginning than we are as a middle. Wondering if I gave too much of my heart too fast. I used to tell myself I was brave for falling for you. Now I’m not sure if I was brave or just foolish.

You say you’re afraid I’ve seen through you. But the truth is, I always saw you. I saw the boy who wrote me letters when no one else dared. The one who listened when the world only talked. The boy who made me feel like I was more than background noise in a noisy world. That boy made me believe in something rare.

But lately… I don’t recognize you. Or maybe it’s that I miss the version of us before the silences started to fill in the spaces between words.

And still still I haven’t stopped loving you.

But love, real love, the kind that doesn’t crumble when life gets messy, that takes work. It takes honesty. And it takes trust. If I give you my heart again, I need to know you’ll hold it carefully. That you won’t just slip into the shadows when things get hard. That when I cry, you won’t shut down or look away.

Because if I fell in love with you, I need to know you’d be there to catch me every time I fall.

So here it is, Paul. The truth, without poetry or pretense: I want to try. I want to believe that this us is worth saving. But I can’t do it alone. If we’re going to write this next verse together, I need your voice beside mine. No more solos. No more silent treatments.

Meet me at the bookstore on Thursday. You know the one the awning we stood under in the rain. If you still believe in what we were, maybe we can figure out who we could still be.

Yours quietly, cautiously,
Vera

John sat back against the attic wall, the smell of dust and old cedar thick in the air, the letter from Vera still trembling in his hand.

For a moment, the world fell silent.

The creak of the rafters above, the soft tick of the antique clock on the floor below they all faded. All he could hear was her voice in his head. Not in the crackling recordings he remembered from childhood or the way she used to hum while stirring tea in the kitchen but younger, clearer, trembling with hope and heartache.

She had been more than the gentle woman who gave him books and sugar cookies and warned him not to leave socks on the heater. She had been this. Fierce. Afraid. Willing to fall and willing to fight.

And his grandfather stoic, measured, always with a firm handshake and a slow nod had been the fool in love who wrote letters in the margins of heartache, who called himself a loser when he felt he'd failed her, and who still showed up on rainy Thursdays.

John pressed the back of his hand to his eyes, embarrassed by the sting there. He wasn’t sure if he was crying for them, or for himself. For the weight of a love so human and imperfect that it suddenly felt more real than anything he’d ever known.

He looked at the letters spread across the dusty attic floor like a mosaic of memory. Dozens of envelopes, some still tied in careful bundles, others opened, pages slightly curled with age and emotion. A record of two people who had tried, failed, and tried again not because it was easy, but because it mattered.

He thought about the world now. About how everything was typed and deleted and forgotten in moments. About how no one seemed to write anything by hand anymore unless it was to do lists or birthday cards. But this these pages this was something worth leaving behind.

He gently placed Vera’s letter back in its envelope, as if tucking her voice to sleep. Then he pulled another from the pile, fingers reverent, breath steady.

There was more to read.

More to remember.

And maybe, more to learn.

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