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Blogocentric Formulations

Logocentric (adj). Regarding words and language as a fundamental expression of an external reality (especially applied as a negative term to traditional Western thought by postmodernist critics).

Sometimes I just write whatever I feel like. Other times I respond to prompts, many taken from the following places:

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10 Most Recent Blog Comments:

Jayne

about 12 hours ago
In response to "The Good and The Bad"

I skipped a full grade based solely on my reading/writing skills, and it should never happened. My math remained behind my peers for my entire life.

Also, I'm way better at fixing/adapting ideas than I am at consistently generating my own. Maybe we should swap stories lol

Witchy Woman

about 13 hours ago
In response to "The Good and The Bad"

I miss those days, I enjoyed my English and History classes, math I struggled with especially Algebra. Apparently I retained enough I tested out of it when I went to college after my divorce.

Stik to My Own Beat

about 13 hours ago
In response to "The Good and The Bad"

I did not get the luxury of dropping classes in high school thanks to the IB schedule. Of course, this meant that I took Algebra I in the fall semester of my freshman year and followed that immediately with Algebra II in the spring. The IB schedule format means I had to pass both of those classes in order to proceed. Thankfully, I did (although Algebra II was an uphill battle). It was still better than geometry, though, mostly because my geometry teacher straight up admitted to struggling to teach geometry due to being better at trig. Good times.

Jeff

a day ago
In response to "Writing Retreat"

Jayne

- You and I can enjoy the cozy cottage on the lake environment while those who prefer to camp can sleep on the ground in a tent and use a bathroom they have to dig themselves. LOL

Ren~Busy as Usual

Sep 21, 2025 at 12:33am
In response to "Free Speech, Gettin' Raptured, & People Worth Suffering For"

Well said on all points. The world is a different place than it was 50 years ago and not bad, some good. But lately? Scary.

Witchy Woman

Sep 20, 2025 at 9:05pm
In response to "Free Speech, Gettin' Raptured, & People Worth Suffering For"

I agree that they'll go for Fallon and Myers next. The mud slinging has gone unchecked since Clinton was in office and has escalated to the point that situations are becoming dangerous for anyone not agreeing with cheeto.

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Seffi

Sep 20, 2025 at 8:02pm
In response to "Free Speech, Gettin' Raptured, & People Worth Suffering For"

"Second Amendment's guaranteed right to bear arms is not the same thing as guaranteed right to assemble an unchecked, unaccountable armory that would make a Navy SEAL envious." That made me laugh. And I agree. Though I am an outsider, looking at the US like a fishbowl - everything looks slightly distorted and confusing, but is also vaguely familiar.

Charity Marie - <3

Sep 20, 2025 at 7:07pm
In response to "Free Speech, Gettin' Raptured, & People Worth Suffering For"

What an interesting trifecta. The one that resonated with me most was the last one so it's the one I'm going to respond to because it's directly relevant to my life, especially right now. You could say I'm "sacrificing" for my relationship. If you know the history, it started as a FWB (friends with benefits) and a hard-boundary of nothing serious. But I'm relationship-oriented. I don't do anything shallowly - I'm just not wired that way. I like commitment - there's something about it that resonates in my nervous system and my bones. Out of 8 billion people, it's that person who says, "I see you. I value you above all others - now or future". It's experiencing life at a deeper level than you can with just friends. It's BATTLING through life together.

For the last year, the FWB relationship has worked because I was working on myself and dating casually, just living life. Eventually I reached a point of just wanting more in my life. Wanting a life partner. So I explored that with him to which he basically said he wanted to stay single forever. Okay, understood. You are another emotionally unavailable man. Noted. Moving on - no harm, no foul. I transitioned it to "friends without benefits" to open up room in my life for a life partner. My idea was to use a matchmaking service - because maybe someone could discern through the bullshit better than I could when they see it every day. Hoping someone would have a more attuned radar to pre-screen out garbage better than apps.

Except, when I mentioned it to him he kind of froze and said, "But what about me?" Then it all changed. We've been carefully, like two battle-scarred generals, navigating it ever since. Successfully I might add despite a misunderstanding that could have derailed the whole thing but actually made us stronger. He told me he'd known for a while that if he were in a better place in life, I would be someone he would want more with. Which floored me because I never even allowed my mind to go there. I labeled him very concretely as "boy toy" and "no feelings" except friendship. That's exactly where it stayed because I can compartmentalize like that unlike other people. I'm an INTJ - half computer, half human. LOL Which brings me to the sacrifice part: we've chosen to wait. Because he's living with a roommate and has a one year lease he doesn't want to break (unless he has to because of the roommate). He's trying to financially get on his feet as well as do some healing of his own.

I get it - there's work to do. I'm further along in my self-growth than he is but was just laid off two months ago so now I'm starting over in a rebuilding phase. So I'm simply waiting for him to catch up and for my own life to restabilize as someone self-employed. The sacrifice is waiting from now until up to one year for his lease to end before we can be together the way we really want. That's when the REAL relationship work begins.

We're doing some of it now - communicating, navigating it all, getting together regularly. It's almost like a long distance relationship because he lives/works 40 minutes away. So when you talk about sacrifice - that hit me pretty hard. But also reassured me because I've never been someone who shied away. I have grit and resilience. It's other people matching me that's been the problem. But finally, I found someone who is and does. So your post gave me hope and reassurance I'm right where I'm supposed to be. Thank you!

Annette

Sep 20, 2025 at 12:12am
In response to "Watch List - August 2025"

Jayne

and Jeff

Include me please.

Jeff

Sep 20, 2025 at 12:02am
In response to "Watch List - August 2025"

Jayne

- Any time you want to arrange a Zoom viewing party, I'm in!

November 21, 2009 at 11:34am

#677101

Throwing in the Towel

So I've been thinking a lot about this over the past couple days, but I think it's time to call it quits on my NaNo effort this year. There are a lot of reasons I'm considering this, not the least of which is that I've been really distracted over the entire month of November, with getting laid off the day before Halloween and now dealing with unemployment checks, consulting work for extremely low pay, etc. My mental state is frazzled, unfocused, and - if I'm being honest - more than a little discouraged.

Not to mention the fact that I'm really not enjoying my story. I had an idea I was (and still am) excited about, but I spent so much time preparing the "NaNoWriMo Write-A-Thon"

and working on my NaNo-themed newsletters for the "Unofficial Erotica Newsletter Group"

that I neglected my own NaNo prep. I don't feel like I know my characters or the finer points of my story, and seem to be just rambling on and forcing the words each day, without being invested in them. I guess the easiest way to say it is that I feel like I'm not doing the concept justice by forcing large quantities of words onto the page without enthusiasm.

I know that sounds like I'm just making a lot of excuses and trying to justify bailing out, but the honest truth is that for one reason (or many), NaNo just isn't clicking for me this year. Last year it was one of the best writing experiences I've ever had - fun, exciting, intense, satisfying, etc. This year, it's been a more challenging experience - tedious and not really all that fun for me. Over the past week, I haven't been viewing my NaNo writing time as something I'm looking forward to, but rather as something I'm dreading... just another task that will take another couple of hours out of my day.

I guess my heart's just not in it this year. Which is sad, because I've been looking forward to NaNo since about January or February.

I think the best thing right now is to bow out now and come back to my novel when I have the time to do it right; to develop the story and characters, and figure out a structure that works for what I still think is an interesting idea. So here's my lesson learned from NaNo 2009 - While you can definitely "wing" an erotica novel (my NaNo 2008 entry), it's not so easy to do with an action/adventure/espionage/mystery. If you don't know the clues and puzzle pieces in advance, they're hard to think up on the spot!

I do feel badly about all of the beneficiarie for the "NaNoWriMo Write-A-Thon"

, so I think the only fair thing to do is make up the difference in word counts from my sponsors. I made it to about 20,000 words this year, so I'll be donating the balance of the 50,000 word count in the denominations they've noted, out of my own personal funds. It's not fair to deprive all the charities the activity is supporting, just because I'm being lame and giving up.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who's been reading my blog and encouraging me in the struggle to catch up on my NaNo writing. The month didn't start off very well, and never really did get back on track, but I deeply appreciate all of the friends who have shown their support and believed in me. If I were more invested in my story, I have no doubt that your encouragement would give me the inspiration to actually pound out the words. After all, you were all the reason I was able to get 20,000 words in the first place. So thank you, to everyone.

I think I'm going to make the most of the last week of November by writing a couple really kick-ass contest entries and maybe starting on that new screenplay I've got rattling around in my head.

To everyone else who's pounding out the NaNo words... keep up the good work! You're all doing great!

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