I am laughing at myself!
When I started Prep or rather two days from the beginning of Prep, I didn't even have one decent idea or premise. Then I read something about the feelings of adoptees in a psychology journal. That gave me a flicker of an idea. Now today on the 19th of the month, the story-to-be grew to enormous proportions inside my mind, and the joke is, I might not even be able to finish it in November or maybe till kingdom come.